… by seeing on FB that my ex-husband got married today.
No one notified me that the divorce is finalized. And no one told me he got married until just now.
It’s 11:10pm at night and I just got a text from a girlfriend …
“Saw Erin got married today! Thinking of you!!! Xoxo”
My first thought was, wow, why didn’t anyone tell me until 11pm at night.
My second thought was … WTF, why didn’t anyone tell me the divorce papers were finalized?
Third thought. HOLY SHIT. I’m divorced. Like for reals.
And this is how I find out???
Granted, we signed the divorce papers a few weeks ago and not like I didn’t see this coming, but this is a really fucked up way of finding out. Just sayin’ …
Would have been nice of Erin to give me a heads up or something. It’s not like we don’t communicate …
… And why didn’t any of my close friends say anything to me?
Maybe everyone thought surely I must know by now.
Maybe no one wants to have an uncomfortable conversation with me.
Maybe they just weren’t being good friends.
Maybe they didn’t know.
Regardless, none of this feels good. It’s a very eeky feeling.
I should have known my divorce was finalized. Period. I have that right.
But it’s also a very exciting moment …
Right now I feel PROUD.
I’m proud that I had the courage to leave that relationship when it no longer served me (or him).
I’m proud that I stood up for myself.
I’m proud that I hustle every single day to keep living my dream.
I’m proud that I’m a woman who knows what she wants and refuses to settle.
I’m proud that I’m DIVORCED because this is what I chose for myself.
I’m one step closer to FREEDOM.
I just reached a very important milestone in my life. It deserves to be commemorated.
And while I found out about it in an undesirable way … nonetheless …
… I can proudly proclaim that I am now officially divorced!
It’s important for me to document this moment and share it. I’m comfortable sharing my feelings and parts of my life because it’s just who I am …
… But I do need to ask you a favor …
For the love of God, PLEASE do not leave me any comments or send me any messages of “I’m so sorry” blah blah blah…
I respect you feeling for me and empathizing, but …
… THIS IS NOT A PITY PARTY … and I’m most certainly not a victim.
This just happened to me and I’m just sharing.
So I thank you in advance for not showering me with your “sorry” comments.
There is truly nothing to be sorry about.
This moment is raw and beautiful, and I’m just capturing it …
Thank you for listening … tomorrow is another day.