I’ve never had a blog before, so where do I begin? I used to write all the time. I have notebooks upon notebooks full of thoughts, dreams, poems, love letters, girly stuff … from years ago. I used to write thought provoking articles in my High School’s newspaper and I was one of the yearbook’s photo editors. I love telling stories in words and in pictures. But sometime during the birth of NetworkingPhoenix and discovering myself as an entrepreneur, I lost these pieces of myself. I lost.
And I gained. In the last 8 years, I feel like gained an entire lifetime of knowledge. I gained local notoriety. I’ve been on countless stages, done many local media interviews and have received many awards and accolades for my accomplishments. I was invited to do a local TEDx talk.
It’s been an amazing journey. I feel accomplished. I feel my little idea grew way bigger than me and has helped thousands of people along the way. Truly thousands! I feel good about that. I did something that truly mattered and it wasn’t because I was chasing money. I felt passionate about a cause and I followed my heart. There are no regrets in that.
But I don’t feel good about the fact that the company isn’t where I thought it would be by this point. I don’t really know why and I don’t have the answers. Is it my marketing? Is it lack of proper tools? Lack of proper knowledge? Lack of focus? Maybe there’s not a lack of anything, maybe I don’t have the right product? Maybe not enough product. Maybe all of the above or maybe none of the above. No one has the answer … but everyone has an unsolicited opinion.
All I know is that right now I need to take 100 steps back, re-evaluate, re-focus and re-shift.
I’m trusting the journey. I’m trusting the struggle. There better be a pot of gold at the end of my rainbow! 🙂
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